It’s super hard to make a judgment call on what’s needed in a situation outside of writing, as I’ve learned in this COVID19 havoc. I like being a writer because I can release a finished edited product to the masses having thought and written it through. I kind of wish I could just write and write and write, then release my stories with my last breath and not be expected to keep doing things while still living, but then I’d be dead and unable to hear criticisms and improve, so, there goes that idea.

In hindsight I’m glad I made the choice to not charge patrons for the month of April during this whole pandemic crisis, but especially with my own bills piling up, it’s becoming clear I can’t do that indefinitely. It looks likely I’ll have to charge patrons for May (which, for a monthly Patreon, isn’t too controversial I hope) so I can make rent etc. At the same time I can’t help but ask myself what I can be doing during this crisis to help others. Should I be tweeting more? Writing stories about COVID19? Writing stories about being more social (heyoo) to take people’s mind off of the virus? I may be small potatoes but to that small degree, I’m a public figure. I have responsibilities… at least it feels like I do.

When I saw Gal Gadot’s nauseating “Imagine” tweet featuring rich celebrities singing Imagine by John Lennon off-key from their mansions to help “soothe the troubles” of the poor and in many cases the people putting themselves in more danger to keep things from collapsing (you know, us), it just makes me realize there are also things public figures shouldn’t do. Thank God I’m not well-known. The pressure sounds exhausting.

I suppose the whole “we’re all in this together” mindset also implies we all have no clue what the heck we’re doing. I guess my larger point is, if there’s anything I can do to help people during this time, or anything I can do to help soften the blow of the devastation this pandemic is causing… let me know. I want to do all that I can. For now I’ll settle for being a mediocre erotica writer. I’ll talk to you all next week.