So those of you who religiously check over this website and my social media accounts may notice that I’ve been pretty bad at communication lately. Those of you who know that I attempt to produce a chapter/piece a month are wondering what’s going on. All of this is valid, and I really have nothing of substance to say other than, ‘I’m sorry.’
I’d really like to work full-time on my writing. I’d like to make myself more relevant on the Internet as opposed to irrelevant. I can not articulate how much it sucks to know that in front of me sits an opportunity like this and yet real life has to come first.
Those who support me on Patreon know of some ambiguous ‘family troubles’ that have plagued me in the past little while. Those have only escalated, and on top of that, I lost my job. I won’t go into details of all of this, but my life isn’t in its peak right now. Social isolation from being out of school and having everything else in my life kind of drag has made me unable to even consider writing if I ever had the time. I need to be somewhere above ‘feeling dreadful’ to successfully write – even sad scenes. I need to feel sad for, say, Nicole or someone, yes, but I also need to feel okay about myself. I’m not one of those writers who can poetically ‘take their pain and weave it into a story’ or some shit. I need to be in an okay position in life to write. As of right now, I’m not. I’d love to say I am, but I’m not.
I’m still committed to writing like this, and I’d like the creative blogs to be a bit more fleshed out and maybe include a personal statement from each of us (as opposed to just what we did, listed almost clinically). I also have ideas for more stories, and more ways to spruce up the website. But right now, I’m in a crisis of all sorts on the personal end. I’m afraid I’m going to have to ask for more time. I’m aware of how much this must suck for you guys when ending a huge story is just within reach. But I’m afraid I’m going to have to ask for more time on this.
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Hope things turn around for you man. Wishing you all the best!
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